Sunday, May 9, 2010

Motherhood

This is the most complete description of what it feels like for me to be a mother to my 4 beautiful children. I have dealt with things as simple as a bump on the head to broken arms to "Mom, why didn't my real parents want me?" and beyond with my children. I love them more than words can ever express and I would do absolutely anything to make sure they are safe and happy kids. You see, to me, Mother's Day isn't about me at all. For without them, I wouldn't be celebrating Mother's Day for me. I am truly thankful that God thought me worthy to have my children and also grateful that He didn't need them before I had the chance to raise them. I have known many people that have been called to help God in this way and I don't know that I would be strong enough for that.

This sums it up for me...

Before I was a Mom, I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.
Before I was a Mom, I cleaned my house each day. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom, I had never been puked on, pooped on, spit on, chewed on, or peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom, I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests...or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom, I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom, I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.
Before I was a Mom, I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

This is a link to a Kelly Clarkson song that makes me think about my kids even though she didn't write it for a mother/child love. Enjoy!

1 comment:

Becca said...

awwww...i am happy you are happy that you are a mom to your kids :) and hey i am sure you get to sleep in a lil more now that Ramon sleeps longer. you are a great mom Jen!